Tuesday, September 1, 2026

The Dangerous Gift


While reading Michael Heiser’s The Unseen Realm this morning, I was suddenly overwhelmed by a thought: God created us with far more power than we realize.

Free will is a superpower.

We are allowed to choose what we think, what we do, and how we respond to what happens to us. We can reason, understand, create, and act. God placed us here with an astonishing degree of freedom and, within that gift, called us to love Him—for who He is and for what He has freely given us.

Our imaginations often begin with Eden, as though God came into existence when He created Adam and Eve. He made them, placed them in the garden, and then sat back to watch the show. But God was God before humanity took its first breath. What He was doing before He created us, I do not know. What I do know is that the power He placed in human hands was immense.

Human history proves it. We have built a world so complex that no single person can fully comprehend it. We have created civilizations, technologies, medicines, music, literature, and machines capable of reaching beyond our planet. That is power.

Yet for all that power, we cannot seem to clean up our act.

With all our intelligence and freedom, we still struggle to choose goodness, kindness, compassion, and love. We kill. We abuse our bodies, wound our families, and exploit one another. We hold extraordinary power in our hands—and that is before we even consider the power of God at work in a willing human heart. Yet we so often live as though we are helpless and without purpose.

We do not even recognize the Creator who placed us here and gave us this superpower.

Free will. Who would do such a thing? Why give a created being the freedom to refuse its Creator? It is a dangerous gift. Human choice is literally capable of destroying the planet, yet we rarely recognize its magnitude. We reduce it to a declaration: I have the right to do as I please. My right—not yours, but mine.

Free will is the ability to choose, but it is more than choice. It allows us to reason, understand, decide, and then act. It enables us to ask not only, “What do I want?” but also, “What is right?”

The Creator placed this gift in our hands as though saying, “Here. Open this. You are going to love it.”

And as soon as we opened it, we forgot Him.

That takes a terrible kind of power—to face your Creator and forget His face. To receive everything and forget the One who gave it. Yet He did not walk away. He did not leave us here or abandon us as we abandoned Him.

This is where superpowers are measured.

We possess great power, but ours is not the greatest. It takes a greater power to create something, see it become damaged, and refuse to destroy it.

That power is love.

We like to believe we possess that superpower too, and in some measure we do. But we do not wield it well. We are damaged creatures running corrupted operating systems, yet we still hold immense power in our hands.

To us, free will can look as reckless as placing a loaded weapon in the hands of a child. The danger is obvious, yet God does not revoke the gift. From our limited point of view, that does not sound wise.

But God knew what we would do with our freedom, and He made a way to repair what we would break.

Then we used our superpower to kill the very One who came to restore us. We put Him in a tomb and believed that took care of that.

It did not.

Once again, we failed to recognize Him. He stood directly in front of us, and still we could not remember His face. The Creator entered His own creation to repair what we had broken, and we used the freedom He gave us against Him.

I do not even want to imagine how difficult that must have been. I have looked into my children’s faces, seen that something in them was broken, and wanted desperately to make it whole. When I could not repair the damage, the helplessness felt like physical pain. I have looked at sick loved ones and wished I had the power to go back and undo whatever brought them to that moment.

But my superpower could not do it.

Yet He did what I could not.

We were not worth such a sacrifice—not from my limited point of view. But I do not see as He sees. To Him, we were worth saving. He still made a way for us to repent—to change our minds, turn our hearts toward Him, and return to Him.

We have been entrusted with a superpower, even though we barely understand it. Perhaps that is why the enemy works so hard to corrupt our freedom, distort our desires, and persuade us to use God’s gift against Him.

Free will is our superpower.

Love is His.


Wednesday, May 13, 2026

Why Worry?

 I've been trying to get through a Bible study on YouVersion called "Why Worry?". While I was doing today's lesson, I realized something that startled me.

I am not worried. Anyone who knows me will think I'm lying or delusional. And yet, it's true. The study described worry, and I didn't have that. 

Things I don't worry about. 

  • So, I have paid my bills and will pay them. 
  • I'm in pain. Some days it is mild, other days it is unbearable and I cry a lot. I don't worry. I hurt.
  • Mike's situation is beyond my control. I'm concerned for him, but I can't fix it, and I know it. He will get surgery and may get better or not. Worry isn't an issue. It is what it is. I'm going to be unhappy or I'll be happy. But for now it doesn't exist.
  • I can take care of myself despite pain and multiple medical issues. And I care for the needs of several other people. None of that worries me. I always seem to have the ability to do that, so I just do what I have to do. 
  • Today is my only obstacle. I'm not worried about getting through today. Either I will or I won't, and neither matters. It's do or die. 

What I have is anger and frustration, and I'm not happy. I don't worry about those things because they actually exist. They're real. I'd be worried if I thought it would help. It won't. 

So here is the list of things I could be worried about, but actually don't care enough about them to be worried.

  • I'm not happy or content.
  • I'm disorganized and frustrated by it. I've never been disorganized.
  • I miss my life as it was before death cheated me. 
  • I miss my granddaughter. She's too busy for me now. One day she will not be but I'm not worried by it. I'm sorry for her and disappointed in her.
  • I miss my family. The road runs both ways, and they've made choices. I spent years driving a whole day to see people. I am not worried about it. I am disappointed, but I'll get over it. I have to get through today's obstacles and don't have enough time left to worry about other people's shortcomings. 
  • I have wants but no needs. I was promised only that my needs would be met. They are. I am not worried about the wants. I could be disappointed, but whatever.  

So:  Rage -yes. Fury - yes. Disappointment - yes. Grief - yes. Pain - yes. 

Worry? Not so much. 

Life is an immense disappointment. We're led to believe it gets better, but it doesn't. It's painful and a thief. Most of the time you will not get what you expect or want. 

There will always be disappointment and grief. That's not worry. They won't kill you; worry will. Recognize the difference between worry and the rest of it. It's about letting things go. If you're nagging it, it's worry. If you're experiencing sadness or disappointment, probably not worry but certainly not fun. Cry and move on.

Death will visit you multiple times to remind you he's coming for you. Don't be afraid of him. He has nothing else to do, and real life begins after he's done with you. He has to repeat his job every moment of every day until one day he dies, too. That's a wasted existence. Don't follow his lead.

You don't have any choices in your life other than picking which road to follow. Your life is already mapped out, and the road you choose will determine the end. You can't change any road you choose. You just have to keep walking. Things will happen. Try to prevent bad things, but refuse to be surprised when you can't. 

There is no tomorrow because it doesn't exist yet. You will create it if you wake up in the morning. Then it will be just another today to get through. Do something different and hope for a different outcome. That's probably another definition of insanity. Enjoy it. It may be the only time you can feel in control. 

You're not in control. Ever.

God is in control. He is sovereign. You can't control him either.

Worry: To feel uneasy or concerned about something; to be troubled. Synonym: brood.

Thursday, March 5, 2026

Another Rabbit Hole! After Babel - 70 Nations

 Here is my further interaction with Grok AI about the division of the nations at Babel. Fascinating stuff! Again, if you haven't read Heiser's book, you'll be somewhat in the dark. 

ME: The nations that these gods were given rule over. Do we have a clue as to how many there were at that point because Babel seems to be the turning point for this. And nations as we know them did not exist.

Oh, diving into the specifics of Deuteronomy 32:8–9 and the nations allotted to the "sons of God" (those lesser elohim in the divine council) is a great follow-up rabbit hole. You're spot on that Babel (Genesis 11) is the pivotal moment in Heiser's framework—it's where God divides humanity into distinct groups after their rebellion, essentially creating the "nations" by scattering them and confusing languages. Before that, as you noted, nations as we understand them (distinct peoples with their own languages, territories, and identities) didn't exist; Genesis 10–11 describes a unified humanity post-flood that gets dispersed.

Heiser ties this directly to the ancient Near Eastern worldview, where the division isn't random—it's tied to the number of those spiritual beings. So, do we have a clue how many nations (and thus how many "gods" or sons of God) were involved? Yes, and it's a specific, recurring number in biblical scholarship: 70. Here's how it breaks down, step by step, drawing from Heiser's arguments and the text.

The Clue to the Number: The Table of Nations (Genesis 10)

  • Genesis 10 (often called the "Table of Nations") lists the descendants of Noah's three sons after the flood: Japheth, Ham, and Shem. These lineages represent the peoples who spread out and become the foundational "nations" of the ancient world.

  • The total count? Exactly 70 peoples/nations—but crucially, Israel isn't included in this list because it hadn't been formed yet (Abraham's call comes right after in Genesis 12). This pre-Babel catalog sets the stage for the division at Babel.

  • Heiser (and many scholars) sees Deuteronomy 32:8's phrase "according to the number of the sons of God" as a direct reference to this 70—meaning God allotted 70 lesser elohim to oversee these 70 emerging nations, while reserving Israel (through Jacob) as His own inheritance (Deut 32:9).

  • Why 70? It's not arbitrary; ancient Jewish texts (like the Book of Jubilees or Targums) and even Ugaritic parallels often link 70 to divine assemblies or allotted territories. Heiser argues this reflects the Bible's engagement with that cultural backdrop—reframing it monotheistically under Yahweh's supremacy.

For a quick visual breakdown of the 70 from Genesis 10:

Noah's Son

Number of Descendants/Nations

Examples

Japheth

14

Gomer (Cimmerians), Magog, Javan (Greeks/Ionians)

Ham

30

Cush (Ethiopia), Mizraim (Egypt), Canaan

Shem

26

Elam, Asshur (Assyria), Arpachshad (leading to Abraham)

Total

70

(Excludes Israel, as it's not yet formed)

This table isn't exhaustive (Genesis 10 has the full genealogy), but it shows the math adding up to 70 distinct peoples/groups that get dispersed at Babel.

Babel as the Turning Point

  • Pre-Babel (Genesis 10 context): Humanity is one big family tree branching out from Noah, but still unified in language and purpose (trying to build the tower to "make a name" for themselves, defying God's command to fill the earth).

  • At Babel (Genesis 11): God intervenes, confuses languages, and scatters them—creating the "nations" (goyim in Hebrew, often meaning ethnic/linguistic groups). Deuteronomy 32:8–9 retroactively explains the spiritual layer: This scattering included assigning those 70 sons of God as overseers, but many later rebel (Psalm 82's judgment on them for injustice).

  • Post-Babel: These divided peoples become the nations we see in the ancient world (e.g., Egyptians, Canaanites, Assyrians). Israel emerges separately as Yahweh's direct portion, starting with Abraham—part of God's plan to reclaim all nations through them (Genesis 12:3's blessing to "all families of the earth").

  • Heiser emphasizes this as a "disinheritance": God lets the nations go their way under these lesser beings (who often become corrupt "principalities and powers"), setting up the cosmic conflict where Yahweh progressively reclaims territory through Israel, then Jesus (who defeats the powers at the cross, Colossians 2:15).

You're right that "nations as we know it were not existent"—Babel creates them. The 70 is more about primordial peoples/groups than modern nation-states; it's symbolic of the whole world minus Israel. Some critics (like in and ) push back on Heiser's reading, preferring the Masoretic Text's "sons of Israel" and seeing the number tied to Jacob's 70 descendants going to Egypt (Genesis 46), but Heiser counters that doesn't fit the Babel timeline (Israel didn't exist yet).

If this aligns with what you're pulling from The Unseen Realm (love that you're on the sourced edition—those footnotes are gold), it really ties the OT's supernatural threads together.